hey now little speedyhead…<\/p>\n
I have so much work to do, but i cannot focus, i don’t really know why,<\/p>\n
before i was fine, now, i am just a useless piece of shit<<\/p>\n
..only just light years to go…..<\/p>\n
lacking any concentration on my work…. its really bad,<\/p>\n
but i am sure I will figure out what it is i am waiting on..<\/p>\n
…this life that pass before my eyes…Nothing is going my way…<\/p>\n
argh… i guess my mood isn’t helping, sometimes i wonder why i am even awake, why not just go to bed, and sleep till the next day, when maybe, something might happen.<\/p>\n
…The ocean is the river’s goal…<\/p>\n
its like my life only occurs in daylight hours, there is nothing keeping me up,<\/p>\n
a tutor i had once told me the best work happens, at the point in the night, when<\/p>\n
you’re that one bit too tired, and the one moment not paying the closest attention to<\/p>\n
detail, you stumble upon the answers<\/p>\n
..I have got to find the river….<\/p>\n
maybe he was right, maybe he is right, but i guess i still need the motivation, without that i am nothing to my work.<\/p>\n
…There’s no one left to take the lead….<\/p>\n
I haven’t been able to find that frame of mind for quite a few days now…its a little worrying, i am not sure exactly how i plan to get there.<\/p>\n
..none of this is going my way….<\/p>\n
I remember last year, taking a bottle of martini with me and locking myself<\/p>\n
in my room and writing my history essay, i guess that was because i needed to relax<\/p>\n
and not get stressed over it, but i get the feeling thats not the ideal way to do it this time<\/p>\n
round…<\/p>\n
… There is nothing left to throw,of Ginger, lemon, indigo,<\/p>\n
coriander stem and rose….<\/p>\n
Maybe i need that holiday again, the one that napier so easily gave me, but well its a finacial<\/p>\n
burden to do, and well I can’t see how one month of university studies has put me in such a state<\/p>\n
that i need this so badly… i might just wait out the weekend<\/p>\n
….The river empties to the tide….<\/p>\n
at least i have that to look forward to, Cassette at bodega, lucid 3 at indigo, my brother,<\/p>\n
my flatwarming, my god, brandon boyd… hehehhe… its time i got slightly light-hearted about<\/p>\n
something at least.maybe i will have the restlessness out of my system,a nd will be able to put<\/p>\n
my head down and get on with this godforsaken business, but the only pressure from that is this damn<\/p>\n
pin up on monday, and needing to have my work for slides finished so they can be sent to the<\/p>\n
developer this weekend<\/p>\n
one can hope for a better mood.<\/p>\n
…..All of this is coming your way….<\/p>\n
song of the day:<\/p>\n
Fairly obviously, Find The River- REM<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n Person of the day:<\/strong> Adam for providing the stalking joy and understanding that only a flatmate could<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" hey now little speedyhead…<\/p>\n I have so much work to do, but i cannot focus, i don’t really know why,<\/P> before i was fine, now, i am just a useless piece of shit<\n\n\n..only just light years to go.....\n\nlacking any concentration on my work.... its really bad, <\/P> but i am sure I will figure out what it is i am waiting on..<\/p>\n …this life that pass before my eyes…Nothing is going my way…<\/p>\n argh… i guess my mood isn’t helping, sometimes i wonder why i am even awake, why not just go to bed, and sleep till the next day, when maybe, something might happen.<\/p>\n