Francesrosey

I’m sitting in the RDU studio doing Sheep Tech on my own. I should probably do a voice break soon, then go pee.

Nice huh?

I feel like I always come to RDU very unprepared. Today I brought a mix CD which I made for Genie as my play list. I think that counts as being prepared and lazy. I guess when I am on my own I feel less like I really should prep myself and think about what I am talking about.

If there is any good Kiwi music out there that you think I don’t know about and I should be playing on The Sheep Tech, comment on this. Heh, I bet I don’t get a comment.

Oh, I think very soon I will be purchasing the Good Laika album, and maybe the Ladi 6 one. Saw her play on the weekend. Awesome.

I’m about to go off to Ladi 6 with Jasper… who has been my partner in crime this weekend. Well not really, but we hung out a bit, well more than anyone else.

I did not:
Tidy my room
Do the research
Knit
work on the light box

I did:
Go to the dux and saw tourettes
Get disappointed by the range at Global Fabrics.
See BBE at Rockquest (lolz)
Make 2 Mix CDs but not all the ones I had intended
Paint
Watch DVD’s
Make lunch for 4 days
See Pine at Goodbye Blue Monday
Hang out with Louise and Eamonn

It feels like I didn’t do much, but when I list it, it doesn’t seem too bad.

During the week I vow to do the research, and find some wallpaper paste to partake in paper mache.

(possible potential project)

Unusually I have no plans for this weekend. I want to visit Global Fabrics, thats it. I might get Caroline to take me to the Uni Libraries if they’re open. Thats about it.
So this weekend I vow to attempt the following:

-Tidy my room to at least a point where I’m not disgusted by it
-Fill a box with craft things I don’t actually need
-Make a couple of mix cds
-Make myself a week of lunches and freeze them
-finish my pile of CDs i’m getting rid of
-Paint
-Knit
-Begin work on the light box I am trying to build

Another frustrating day I see is unfolding in front of me. I’m going to try and be more positive about it than yesterday. That was a nightmare. I ended up staying with Sarah and watching a movie. Two people in a similar state probably aren’t that helpful. I felt like everything I said to comfort her was stupid because at the same time I couldn’t get things straight in my head. I am quite aware of how I’ve become quite irrational in the last week or so.

We ended up renting a movie which I am sure Cat Power had a cameo in as a Russian ex-girlfriend. It was probably a good movie, but we had been looking for a light-hearted comedy and we ended up with a dramatic love story which involved drunks and gambling addicts and was very dark. It didn’t help our mood. The only good thing really was the betty crocker vanilla cake that we were eating before the movie started.

I guess the up side, although its still very cold, is that the sun is out, and I’m sitting on reception today so am getting a healthy dose of warmth. This morning I wore two pairs of gloves while riding to work. My fingers still burned with cold. I’m looking forward to escaping Christchurch.

It’s a Motherfucker
Being here without you
thinking ’bout the good times
thinkin ’bout the bad
And I won’t ever be the same

It’s a Motherfucker
Getting through a Sunday
Talking to the walls just me again

But I won’t ever be the same
I won’t ever be the same

It’s a Motherfucker
How much I understand
The feeling that you need someone
To take you by the hand

And you won’t ever be the same
You won’t ever be the same

I’ve been really restless lately. I feel like I’m on the verge of something but no idea what it is. I want to do things, see people and go places but I don’t know who, where and why.
Its probably a good thing I don’t still have a car. I’d be gone by now. I’d have picked a direction and just gone.

I guess this feeling is caused a couple of shitty days at work, feeling unmotivated by it, bored by putting on shows, bored by some people, annoyed by others, and hopeless to those that need support. I had a really nice weekend lying round on a couch talking about life stuff. I felt useless about a lot of it but at the same time, being there and talking about it just seemed to be the right thing.

I guess the frustration will pass at some point, just have to wait it out. I might go down to Dunedin next weekend. I’m taking the day off regardless of whether I go or not. I don’t particularly like Dunedin, its not that I don’t like it- I just feel nothing for it as a place. I think I might put this down to the pretty uneventful trips I’ve had down there.

I’ve been making a pile of mix cds lately. I owe them to at least Mandi, Genie and Lisa. I’ve been really slack in doing them though.

I made an NZ music mix cd and have been listening to it for 3 days in a row now, trying to decide if these are the songs I really want to put out there for all to hear to reflect songs I like locally.

The key thing is actually less about the songs themselves but the production values of one song to the next. Some sound more… polished than others. Side by side, it makes otherwise awesome songs sound a little flat.

I tend to stick to pretty simple formulas when making a tape for others. I guess I mean with like, the types of songs I open with, and end with. How track 7 always seems to be a song I am totally in lust with. Lust because the way I adore songs seems to be like, I am obsessed for a month or two, constantly playing it, then all of a sudden I have a new song, and I don’t think about the old song again in that way.